let's get the day started right,

there's no hesitation in sight

maybe I was down last night

but I won't let that signify

who I really am inside

Ive been blessed with the light

It's my duty to share this side

I'm opening up I think I might

find abundance tonight

let's get the day started right,

there's no hesitation in sight

maybe I was down last night

but I won't let that signify

who I really am inside

Ive been blessed with the light

It's my duty to share this side

I'm opening up I think I might

find abundance tonight

I'm fighting my way out of this feeling

but it keeps pulling me back

I keep searching for more reasons

Why is it that I can't face the fact

I feel I'm closing the distance, but then another day ends

What will it take to achieve it? Is it the message I send?

I look up to the sky and feel it, the abundance whispering

I know all the pain and resistance stems from inside of me

it's my choice of existence; all I have to do is believe

in what I am in presence, what I deserve and seek

All it takes is persistence, belief and it will come to me

Unleash your potential

release your miracle

we all know we uniquely

were gifted to connect

manifesting is essential

discover abundance

over come distractions

make it intentional

develop proactive

reactions

take decisive action

ascend to greatness

this is the only option

where's my heart at

friday night I need to do it right

everything I can

where's my heart at

I swear I went by the plan

but planning isn't living

procrastination can get out of hand

you know you're capable of more

the truth isn't hidden or forbidden

what can I say, what can I do,

manifestation can make it happen

I'll give it everything I can to soar

higher than the trees,

higher than I have before

I'll go higher, I'll do it for you

determination and decisive action

procrastination aint got shit I'll stand

up for everything

friday night I'll do it right

let's make it happen

I'll give my heart tonight

I'll give it to you

counting down the seconds

when your so far away

times change

and so do we

yet I can't push you away

or break free

I'm bound, tied in,

locked in

chained by the memories

my hearts locked and you had the key

yet the key's so far from me

my locks rusting

will I ever be free

I wonder if you still possess the key

I wonder if I'll ever find love

will this emptyness remain in me

when your so far away

n I'm so far above

my heart's locked in place

there's no escape

when your so far away

when I thought you were the one

it was a chance we had to take

i know it's not your fault

its my own for building up a wall

I won't let them break it down

I can still hear the call

still so caught up in the sounds

I need to go now, let the vibes surround

me seal me save me heal me take me away

so I can give more, create

I can feel it shake, the vibrations the rhythm what does it say

I take the past pain, to reflect and contemplate

to make something great, to help another do the same

tired, yet I can't complain

I need to give it everything I can

maybe if I give it everything I have

I'll achieve everything I can imagine

I'm blessed to be here, I swear I have everything

I need inside yet I ache with anxiety

self-esteem issues and messed up pride

I'm scared of wasting my life

scrolling and dodging social situations

all so I can keep working inside

safe, in a box I built for myself

but feel so trapped in all the time

I want to escape, and help someone else,

the universe whispering it'll be fine

guiding me down different paths

I know it will lead somewhere in time

if I lock in head in to love, hate, and wrath

if I take the journey through my fears

all the rewards I've been wishing for will appear

I only need to give it everything I have

it's never going to slow down from here

you either accept or ignore

to take the lead, ask for more

give more and pray away fear

you run into the sunrise and soar

and contemplate when your heart tore

overcoming the trials sent every year

that's a blessing I'm grateful for

the first step

write with passion

a quick guess

and fast reaction

a simple test

and lasting tension

do your best

and the rest will happen

If I show myself

Will they rip me apart

Or build me up

If I'm only myself

Will they tell me that I'm not good enough

If I read an entire book in a day

Will my life change

If I consume to create

Can I catalyze change

Am I only here to entertain

What's the message to convey

Why do I categorize everything

If I stand for something

Can we stand together

If I break apart, will they piece me back together

Why go alone if together we can go fartherIf I show myself

Will they rip me apart

Or build me up

If I'm only myself

Will they tell me that I'm not good enough

If I read an entire book in a day

Will my life change

If I consume to create

Can I catalyze change

Am I only here to entertain

What's the message to convey

Why do I categorize everything

If I stand for something

Can we stand together

If I break apart, will they piece me back together

Why go alone if together we can go farther

how many times a day

do I look for problems

every one is a chance to take

a new way, a new phrase

a path to take to solve them

an opportunity, a maze

of critical approach

challenging the brain

with thoughts that encroach

fighting for solutions to save

thoughts circling around in my head

over and over again

vultures preparing for their chance

to dive and attack

dreaming I have everything

praying and affirming

on the daily

but what's the cost

to strive and accept

ocean view in my mind

water washing away

the worries and time

ocean view a calming sigh

waves crash against my brain

the hurry and slurry of rhymes

it comes the way it does

make it what you want

prioritize the path from God

you were sent on

fight to find the light of

where you come from

let go to take hold of something new

feel the rhythm in the view

dreaming of a self born a new

quantum dancing and canceling

negative thought patterns

I'm abundant, a forever burning lantern

in the midst of a beautiful abyss

smiling electrostatic tingling laughter

flowing within as without

eternally forever burning out

to a happy ever after

I have all the time in the world

every moment of my youth

five years ago, I was skating, cruising

not caring and caring too much

spending so much time with a girl

what carries me through

what carries me on worn and bruised

memories streaming in my head, such a rush

let me knock it out now

rip it out, how

do you do those things to me

me myself

oh why do I contemplate

without doing

me myself

why do I pray for

something else

something new

I wish and I wish

I can tell

I'm closing in

so close

its already in

me myself

so many mistakes

but is it a mistake

if you didn't mess up

if you didn't risk

if you didn't try to fight

what you're scared of

is it a mistake if you always

keep yourself safe

the choices I've made

do I ever decide for myself

thinking over and over again

until time decides for me

and I begin again

am I becoming a better man

or more self obsessed

as the years sink in

I think maybe it's run its course

I think perhaps it's time I run forward

I think I think I always think

One direct line to heaven and an anchor

to earth

Why am I stagnant

is it the money I could make

is it the memories I've made

is it the lack thereof

is the thought of lack

what keeps me stuck

The words, the story

I've been writing

alone, home,

working on the fine detailing

but that not something you can make up

The time will pass

whether or do or not

I'm scared to wake up

distractions and misdirections

If not this, then what should I be chasing

I'm scared to facet them

I'm living I'm being

I am

It's not anyone's fault

I am and always will be

what I am

I can be the best thing for you

everything, everything now

I can be the best thing for you

everything, everything now

everything, everything now

I can be the best thing for you

you were my everything

now I'm trying anything

to be everything, anything

you want

chained words

wrapped around my heart

I look over my shoulder

to see where I came from

to see a decade older

five years ago now

seemed so much closer

I look ahead

more discipline, choice, and action

I loosen the hold these thoughts

pull me, nag me, play me

put me down, help me, oh

how the time escapes me

I tried to escape it

It's hard to believe the time

keeps on drip by drip by drip

the music of nature

as the chains chime to mimic

oh how funny

multitasking and flabbergasted

almost missing the mission

against all odds and old-fashioned

I'm not sure how

I'm supposed to act, here I am again,

fifteen

minutes before midnight

ache in my hand

making it up on the fly

you looking me in the eye

how did you think

that would make me feel I

may fall in love tonight

late to slumber

early to rise

sleeping deeper than any other

opening my mind

Daydreaming a new journey ahead

Where to go from here

Here now, in this moment

What do I choose?

I hate to sit around and lose

Precious time given

Where to go from here

Or is here, now, everything

Everything I'm searching for

Everything I'm missing

am I making the right choice?

what we all must ask ourselves

too many times to tell

something catching my voice

too hard to speak about myself

do I want to live on the road

or have a place to call home

do I need you to feel whole

or need to let go to know

It's a matter of perspective

a matter of direction

yet I keep convincing myself

Choices that sit for days

I can’t decide

I know I’m getting better but

I still hide

I attempt to ignore

As I lay awake

If I never choose

Then it won’t hurt

Right

Then I can’t blame

Is there a wrong or

Right?

I guess I need to see

What I can become so

I’ll leave

I feel alone

I know you do, too

I know it’ll hurt and hurt

You too

It hurts me even now

we will make it through

is it time

my eyes

can barely stay

open

is it night

or daylight

breaking

closing

is it mine

or someone

else

choosing

no matter how the days change and grow

every morning I wake up

the sunlight is so beautiful

the breeze against my skin so wonderful

marks of age beginning to show

from many moments that made you,

break you and make you whole

here I go again

back and forth in thought

Back and forth in time

Now it's my time

to create my

time to do what I can

before it's too late

Forget overthinking and

mind games, playing

with the heart of the who you love

for what

Fake emotional change

It’s time

every day, working and waking up in a new way

a better way

ever day in every way becoming the better me

the best me

being me

striving to beat the better me

the best me

I know I can be

There’s a message for me incoming from the void

I feel it beckoning for me, I'm not sure if I’m running to or from

I’m becoming everything I am. Let live and be

I want it so badly yet I still find ways to avoid

I search the scriptures I write to myself and

Search the scribbles I left for someone else

To breathe the silence within the noise

here we go again

midnight on Sunday

before the workweek

begins

but this is for the journey

to begin

working on the weekends

to build a fortune

until I get back to grind for a

living

The time is finally here

However much planned

I live what I imagine

The time is finally here

Head aching

Pressure built up

A decision

disaster next up

A touch of happy

Ever after

A rush I’m not sure

I want

What is it that

I’m after

An ache

for the thought

that got away

saved in a database

but data can be erased

destroyed

but what is what was

will always be

a matter perception

or memory

many amazing ideas

I believe I can

I know I can

Produce great work

Use these skills

to create great books

everything is possible

the money is flowing in

I know I can

I believe I can

I only need to go all in

so fast this time has past

nearly five years or so

how crazy is that,

I guess it's perception

I guess it's a fact

Maybe it's a fat rat

race or just flat

earth games

what's that?

so very fast

we better pack

if this is the end, oh wow

if this is the end,

oh well

why did I wait so long then

Thinking it’s too late, thinking it’s all a game,

If so we should all have fun even when losing,

Right?

The next play you will be winning

It’s in the mind, it’s a target

A mindset

Intention into what matters

Tending to ones attention

Intending one’s circumstances

The next play you will be winning

Everyone’s working to become

What they are

Let it all come together

I feel it in my bones

I feel it in my soul

Let it all fall forever

As we all do

Create and create

Reborn again

We seek

Again and

Again

Free forever

Consistency is key

abundance unlocking

Growth manifested

We’re free

Reaching out to the universe

Balance knocking

I have spoken

So I shall have

So I shall see

For what is asked

Is given

All that is asked

Is the command

Faith, love

Consistency

As written

Blessed I know I am

So confused about someone so close

What do I choose to stay or go

The answer is probably so simple

Yet feels so far from Hope

I don’t like living in wait

Yet seems I’ve been waiting so long

to let go

yet here I am, hanging on to you

as my home

Stomach aching but I ate it

I ache so good

Mind fading minefield quaking

I fake so good

every second a lesson I’m chasing

Every message a blessing I’m changing

A Metamorphosis you can’t catch

If you stay waiting

I’m awake and pacing

Cracking the shell of me, I'm changing

Each moment has tension I’m feeling

letting go of each piece

Ok so we did it again

I’m feeling it

We might as well win

So I’m going in

Let’s get it

We’re in everything

Vibing and creating

Always being

Opening and closing

Always seeking

Contently

Give it back

The time the youth

The dreams the tune

You better give it back

I need it I feel used

You better stay on track

I’m talking to you

I know you know who

You better attack

Like a hunter

It’s about the timing

We only gather

To bait

Stop waiting

I’m searching the horizon

Light

Before it’s too late

Tonight

Stop faking

You want to get to know them

Then know yourself

You feel the most awake

When you finally think

For yourself

You better give it back

You better take it back

You better get out

Before your dead

I’m searching the horizon

Light late

Tonight

All these feeling these hopes these dream

I’m just trying better version I can be

What am I who am I what’s the point of this life

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Intrusive thoughts they come for me

I just want my soul to speak

It’s just my heart is going to bleed

They come for me yeah they come for me

Sneaking in I can’t seal the seems

I wont give power to it but it comes for me

They come for me yeah they comes for me

Intrusive thoughts they come for me

As quick as they come

unknowingly knowing where they originate from

So much desire so much undone

I want to create but this work needs to get done

Why did I choose this Why did I pursue this

Who am I if I don’t go do this

Who am I if I do, what am I running from

always overwhelming myself, where am I coming from

Always trying to cast that next spell catch that next sell

What is man to do

For that good get rich quick shit

The good the bad, the bitch shit

what am I running to

I know it’s going to take everything that I have to scratch that itch

I know it’s going to take everything that I have to give

I know it;s going to everything everything

Intrusive thoughts they come for me

I just want my soul to speak

It’s just my heart is going to bleed

They come for me yeah they come for me

Sneaking in I can’t seal the seems

I wont give power to it but it comes for me

Yeah it comes for me yeah it comes for me

Intrusive thoughts yeah they come for me

As quick as I’ll live

And as quick as I’ll die

Doing everything I can to make sure I live right

Fighting demons outside, and on the inside

I’m working to become everything I can

i know i’ll be fine

Doing everything I can I know I’ll be fine

I almost forgot

But how could I forget

When it is always within

At least I will write it

At least I remember

I assume the best

I give and surrender

I’m already thinking back

As I go through this process of creation

Reflecting how I could have did this or that

Better then

But always doing the best I can

dreams I'm manifesting

dreams I can taste

a vibration I feel

there is

no mistake

the words are real

the words I feel

limits I break

I push ahead

when low when high

there is no wrong way

only to stagnate

when you stay in place

Sometimes, it gets dark 

And you lose yourself 

Sometimes, it’s too bright 

To tell

I’m draining it out 

Can you feel me shout 

The vibrations tease me ow

Tell me you need me now 

Why do I do this 

To myself 

Why is it I need 

To do this 

Myself 

Take me 

Down 

I’m lost myself 

But there was nothing to lose

My ego fell 

I’ve always been you 

So stuck on how I’m going to make it

But I still see it

Don’t know why I feel like I’m faking

But I know I’ll make it

I know I’ll make it

If I put all my faith in

If I put all my faith in

my heart as one

the lord above

I know I’ll make it

I know I’ll make it

I wonder if I’ll think about this in twenty years

This moment right here

I wonder if I’ll think about you

After I’m gone and you disappear

I wonder, I wander

I’m doing everything to be a better me

I’m doing everything I can to try to see the real me

I’m doing everything I can to be the real me

To beat the better me

To beat the better me

But I feel this jealousy

When I see these people

in front of me

It’s hard to compete

I contemplate what that even means

To beat the better me

Stuck on the little things

Feeling like I'll never

feel complete

I get caught in my head

when I think of all the things

I could of been

or could have said

I wonder what it means

if I wake up or fall asleep

and no one blinks

Yet I know I'll make it

I know I'll make it

A Kickstart

Like a jump start

Wake up

With a kick to my heart

The mission beating

Whispered to me

How bad do you want it

The vision speaking

Give everything

Give my all

Through my art

Focused and open

Opportunity glistening

Accept and

Receive

Awaken, refocus

I have a purpose

A mission

To give without

Remission

To love without

Condition

To see with eyes

Unclouded

My mind open, the

Vision

Clearing, the

Intentions spoken

The world manifesting

Channeling through me

A tool, a wand, a beacon

I surrender and

experience

How do I integrate every vibe all these lives

All these stories

I’m writing these words to my success

I’m blessed I know it but I’ve been down

And worried

nearly every second

Hard to talk to others and open up

About it

Not sure how to connect and get out

So I don’t I live in my head alone, clouded

I bet these bars

Could help me out of it

I smile and pass through the moments

They go, I need to shout

I can not grow old

Living in doubt

I feel it I feel it

the universe is calling I know it

I need to let it happen

It’s vibrating I feel

I need to let it happen

If I let go if I surrender

If I forget my name my label

Maybe I will find my way back home

Maybe or whatever

I guess it is what it is

But i need to know

I need to let go

Conflicted confidence

Confiding in silence

Pursuing greatness

Constantly collecting

Consciously growing

Perfecting presence

I want to make art, videos as art

art as art, experience as art

I want to create and give,

I want to feel and win,

I want to love and spend,

I want each and every second blessed, remembered in some sentence

Left behind in the forever now

As a question

As a lesson

Live great art.

Give great art.

Stop overthinking it

Stop overthinking it

Stop overthinking it

It’s easy to become overwhelmed, to overthink, to contemplate and compare yourself against everyone else.

To see what others have wish you had it.

The success, the love, the beauty, the passion,

the strength, the body.

You wish to love yourself. The question is

Would you love yourself if you had it?

all it takes is a poem a day

a commitment you made

go all the way,

give it everything

receive the blessings

it’s simple, it’s fun

it’s easy

peace, love, and

harmony

forever and

always

A new year

another chance

work work work

spin and whirl

in life's lovely dance.

We choose each step

we play and chance

fate, in excitement for what's

next. We reach out to

test our footing, but nothing

is ever quite as you

expect.